Thursday, March 20, 2008

THIS STINKS I MEAN IT, IT REALLY STINKS!

I don't even know where to start. As most of you know my husband has an 18 year old daughter, her name is Bethany. Bethany came into my life when she was only 5 years old. So as you can imagine as the years has gone we have became not only by marraige but by building a relationship mother and daughter. Bethany turned 18 in January and the fun really began. I hope you can hear the sarcasm in my voice. She had literally turned into this kid that we don't recognize anymore. Okay so I know that I wasn't the easiest child to raise and that I nearly gave my parent a heart attack when I married my husband whom already had 2 children when I was only 19 but I promise you I was listening to God. I mean look at us 11 1/2 years later. We are doing wonderfully and love each other more than we did then. I see Bethany running with the wrong kids, doing things I never would have dreamed of. Then she sends me a text message last Friday(here is the kicker) she wants to know what I think about her joining the National Guards. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR First off all of my kids know where mamma stands on this, they don't have to ask. Secondly she don't really want to know she just want to get my blood to boiling. So anyway we end up in a very heated discussion while I am still at work no less that continues all the way through my grocery shopping trip. I finally calm down and pray about this situation and realize nothing I can say to this child will ever change what she is going to do. I sent her an e-mail letting her know that I really thought she needed to pray about this. I also told her that no matter what her decision that I wanted her to know that I would always be there for her because I love her so very much. I may not have carried that kid in my womb but I will forever carry her in my heart. She has since done her best to convince me that this is the best thing for her and there is nothing I can do to change her mind. She is going next week to get her physical and sign the final papers. It breaks my heart that she is doing this but I know that I can't do anything to stop it.