Thursday, May 26, 2011

Turning it around!

Three and a half years ago I was the happiest I had ever been with my physical image. I had never been so small in my entire life and as with so many things in my life I became one of those that said I will never be that works as hard as I did to get the weight off to just put it back on. All I can say is never say never! I guess a person never knows what they will do until that road is in front of them.

In the last few years I have been through a lot. A lot emotionally, physically, medically and mentally. My life has completely changed, nothing is as it was. I hate change, I do not cope with it well at all.

I haven't shared this because honestly I feel so ashamed.

I had an appointment with a specialist two weeks ago to see if he could give some insight as to why I had such a sudden weight change and what if anything I could do to fix it. Boy was that a wake up call but it was a wake up call I needed! He first told me that the hysterectomy I had 3 1/2 years ago put my body on a slippery slope and it just began what he called a snowball effect. I developed hypothyroidism shortly after my hysterectomy which had been no fun to say the least. The more weight I gained the more depressed I became about it not to mention all the things life was throwing my way. To get to the point he told me that I have a metabolism syndrome. This causes my body to make too much insulin which in turn causes you to store and hang on to fat. They also think I have something called Cushing syndrome which I don't know a lot about I just know that it causes you to gain and excessive amount of weight. He also told me that if I didn't do something that he could tell me with almost a 100 percent guarantee that in the course of the next few years I would develop diabetes and heart disease(did I mentioned that these two components contributed to my grandmothers death).

There is nothing that can be done about metabolic syndrome other than dietary changes and with Cushings there is medication but the best thing all around is dietary changes and exercise. So I left his office that day with a prescription for dietary changes(South Beach Diet) and exercise. I also left there that day feeling relieved, yes I said relieved! I finally had an answer and I wasn't going nuts. I'm not saying that the intense dietary changes didn't freak me out a bit (or a lot) but I had an answer. That was two weeks ago today. The first week was hard but this week I'm enjoying it(yes I said enjoying). Who enjoys a diet right! Best of all as of this morning I had lost 14.4 pounds in the last 14 days and it feels grand!

I won't let food kill me!

I also won't say that I won't put weight on, it obviously happens but I feel that I have a better grasp of things than I've ever had. I have however learned one of the hardest lessons of my life.

I have also learned and an easy lesson it was not that I can control what I do with how my emotions make me feel. I can choose to go to the fridge and veg out or I can choose to spend another year on earth with my family.

Raw an roasted veggies Are so totally my thing right now. I may have to eat 5 or 6 times a day but I'm satisfied and still coming in under my allotted cal/fat/carbs for the day.

So this is where I am and this will most likely totally turn back into my diet exercise journal but that worked really well for me last time around.

I will leave you with a picture of the cutest little man who has absolutely stolen my heart!

With all my love,
Beverly!